On the Process

On the process

That’s how I would like to describe the life that I have right now

On the process

Of loving myself

Of accepting who I am

My hits and my misses

My beauty and my bruises

My intelligence and ignorance

My passion and disinterests

My achievements as well as the set backs,

On the process of waiting

For my big break

Career climax

Healing

And the love of my life

On the process of growing.

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She has the wildest mind

A factory of ideas,

Maker of unlikely stories

She has the biggest heart

Lover of minute details,

Emphatic to the oddest balls

She has the loudest laugh

Bearer of the corniest joys,

Painter of colorful grins

She has the daintiest hands

And if no one would write about her

Then these dainty hands

Would do the scribbling

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It’s a matter of awe when you suddenly find yourself connected to someone. 

When he suddenly becomes a part of your day, may it be large or small in scale

It is nice to know that he trusts you with sacred parts of him

Things you never thought he would share

But getting twisted by his words, his actions and secrets

Overthinking what they mean and what you mean to him

These are the thoughts that aren’t covered by awe.

These are thoughts restricted by fear yet nourished by hope

Focus on the people who matter

Focus on the people who appreciates you

Focus on being authentic

Focus on the identity you have in the Lord

Focus on your good attributes

Focus on the great thinhs that you have whether they see it or not

Sometimes

Sometimes, I wish that I am not as invested with my body as I am.

Sometimes, I wish that I just don’t care about other’s feelings.

Sometimes, I wish that I dont pay attention to every detail people say in a conversation

Sometimes, I wish that I don’t set it in me to strive for authenticity, even if it means brutal honesty, in myself

Sometimes, I wish that I just dont care. Period. 

Sometimes. Some times. 

Just because no one seems to be interested in me doesn’t mean that I am not worthy.
Just because I haven’t been asked on a date by guys doesnt mean I would never be in one
Just because some other people get to be complimented by people and  I don’t, doesn’t mean I don’t have any good qualities
Just because I am a lot bigger than most girls, doesn’t mean I would never fit someone’s ideal
Just because I havent experienced anything about love or romance doesnt mean that it is the end or that my life doesnt measure up to those who had
My life’s worth and my worth doesnt depend on what most people deem to be appropriate or what the society thinks is right or what I think is right.
I dont need to compare myself.
I just have to love me, thoroughly and uncomditionally.

When everything seems about to close in
When they say that chances has become slim
When voices urge my heart to keep on worrying
When my mind can’t find peace and keep on running
I promise to draw in all the strength left in me
And choose to trust the Lord
For there is no one who could calm the storm
And no one would fight for me
Like the Son of God, Jesus Christ.