My heart may be anxious
But it is a heart that seeks You
My heart may be fickled
But it is a heart that keeps coming back
My heart may not always be guarded
But it is learning everyday
My heart may not be the most loving
But it is always honest
Today I decided that I wont go to the gym
That I will eat that pint of ice cream
That I will watch and read all those scenes
That I will let myself feel
That I wouldnt think
That I wouldn’t worry
That just for today, I wouldn’t be bothered
That my dreams and goals will still be my dreams and goals
But I’ll just take a step back
Just for today.
We keep looking for the next big thing,
We feel lost when we are not going,
We always want the breakthroughs,
No waiting period,
Just succeeding climaxes.
You’ll be someone’s warmest place
You’ll be someone’s best decision
You’ll be someone’s most awaited notification
You’ll be someone’s #blessed-reason
She has the wildest mind
A factory of ideas,
Maker of unlikely stories
She has the biggest heart
Lover of minute details,
Emphatic to the oddest balls
She has the loudest laugh
Bearer of the corniest joys,
Painter of colorful grins
She has the daintiest hands
And if no one would write about her
Then these dainty hands
Would do the scribbling
It’s a matter of awe when you suddenly find yourself connected to someone.
When he suddenly becomes a part of your day, may it be large or small in scale
It is nice to know that he trusts you with sacred parts of him
Things you never thought he would share
But getting twisted by his words, his actions and secrets
Overthinking what they mean and what you mean to him
These are the thoughts that aren’t covered by awe.
These are thoughts restricted by fear yet nourished by hope
Mind is racing
Turning in diffirent directions
and what about now?
Sometimes, I wish that I am not as invested with my body as I am.
Sometimes, I wish that I just don’t care about other’s feelings.
Sometimes, I wish that I dont pay attention to every detail people say in a conversation
Sometimes, I wish that I don’t set it in me to strive for authenticity, even if it means brutal honesty, in myself
Sometimes, I wish that I just dont care. Period.
Sometimes. Some times.
Life, as we go through it,
is a series of beautiful,
although often times confusing,
We crave for stability
Yet we abhor redundancy
We promote uniqueness
Yet we criticize those who choose
to be diffirent
Do not give up
Things might be a mess
You seem to always
take two steps back,
After a feeble step forward
But that shouldnt stop you from trying
If your life would just all be about
Then so be it
Failure is not about not succeeding,
It is about giving up when
there’s still an alphabet of plans
in front of you.