My heart may be anxious
But it is a heart that seeks You
My heart may be fickled
But it is a heart that keeps coming back
My heart may not always be guarded
But it is learning everyday
My heart may not be the most loving
But it is always honest
We keep looking for the next big thing,
We feel lost when we are not going,
We always want the breakthroughs,
No waiting period,
Just succeeding climaxes.
Sometimes, I wish that I am not as invested with my body as I am.
Sometimes, I wish that I just don’t care about other’s feelings.
Sometimes, I wish that I dont pay attention to every detail people say in a conversation
Sometimes, I wish that I don’t set it in me to strive for authenticity, even if it means brutal honesty, in myself
Sometimes, I wish that I just dont care. Period.
Sometimes. Some times.
When everything seems about to close in
When they say that chances has become slim
When voices urge my heart to keep on worrying
When my mind can’t find peace and keep on running
I promise to draw in all the strength left in me
And choose to trust the Lord
For there is no one who could calm the storm
And no one would fight for me
Like the Son of God, Jesus Christ.
We live in a world where Happiness is the number one priority.
Happiness at any cost
Happiness at our own way,
whenever or wherever we want it.
Happiness that is self-centered
Happiness that equates to self-respect.
Because self-respect according to the internet philosophers
is about doing whatever you want to do
without giving a
“f*ck,sh*t,d*mn” to anyone
as long as you’re happy.
With the first commandment as:
Thou shall not criticize one’s Happiness. (
for it is easily offended)
So the question now is
Why do we live in a miserable world with individual Happiness as its primary goal?
What I crave right now
Are long conversations
Unguarded and liberated
Lines after lines of your unfiltered thoughts
Knowing that someone is eager to hear it
Consume all those conspiracies
Or your first-hand life lessons
Then as to show their gratitude, they would share their own thoughts
The ones in-line and the exctiting curb-balls
The debates that spring from it
Aim not to prove one wrong
But, rather, widen your horizon
No judgement just an exhilarating excercise
Made of facts, opinions, hypotheses, personal whims and passion
Fueled by a piping cup of caffeine
When I was a kid
Feeding like a wee babe
I only understood the words
Love, Trust, and a bit of Hope
When I could take some solid food
I was able to grasp more Hope
And what Faith is, and how to spread the Love
Now that I’m feeding myself to be stronger
Waiting and Giving the Glory to Him
are what my palletes trying to understand
Sometimes I just let it in without really tasting
But with a good serving
I realized that what it tastes like
It is knowing the greatness that was able to come from us
Isnt because we are great
But because we have a Great God
A God who could make something big out of nothing
A God who values even the wretch that we are
A God who could right all our wrong turns
Wouldn’t condemn us but would just lovingly say “recalculating”
‘Til we get to His appointed place
A God who would pick up our broken pieces
And make our lives into wonderful masterpieces
The shattered, the better
As long as we lay it all to Him
To fix it up and and bury it in His heart within
Women were more than the status of their hymen and their dress size.
-Kaitlyn Parker, Heat by Penny Reid
We say we hate the society
For they judge us openly
We say we wont conform with the media
For they have contorted standards
And yet when we look at the others
We judge them immediately
And when we look at ourselves
You dont even see the beauty for it is not like the one on t.v.
The commands You’ve given makes my heart feel stricken
It restricts it, ’til it’s bursting and my body, rebelling
But I guess my mind is missing something
Something important, that would change everything
What I thought as power tripping
All these time, was just you Loving
Loving us by drawing us near to you
These commandments in different hues
Set to give us life,
so that we could take the world in stride
These commandments that before, to me, were constricting
Now, are the very ones, to my soul are freeing.